the climb

seeking higher ground. 

it's strange having the feeling that you can just drown, give up, give in. right now i just want to give in. throw in the towel. but i can see the potential. i see that light at the end of the tunnel and i want to seek that 'higher ground.'

praying for a calm spirit. and ironically thinking of that cheesy song by miley cirus -i know i spelt it wrong- as she says, "there's always gonna be another mountain, i'm always gonna wanna make it move,....doesn't matter how fast i get there, doesn't matter whats waiting on the other side, it's the climb." yea. this is what happens when you work at a children's clothing store, you listen to only children music. brainwashing is more like it. i'm not lucky enough to choose my own radio stations. i think that would scare customers! lol. 

praises: so thank you for alls of yous who have been praying for my uncle Toby. his physician ran some tests on his heart and apparently they couldn't find the blockage, and so it is assumed that it wasn't a heart attack that he had. but that only leaves us wondering what it was to be exact. all i know is that i'm very thankful for family right now. i had a moment the other day being at home, looking at old pictures on our stair wall. - yes we have pictures of the family, baby and all going up the stairs. ridiculous some...- reminded me the importantness and bonding of a family. i can only dream of the man God will bless me with one day, keeping family ties together, and having God in the center of all. 

what i need: encouragement. and realness. 

tomorrow i'm busy busy busy...ahhhh. surprising since i don't have work all week! muahahaha.  but nonetheless, i am climbing cowles tomorrow w/ my new workout buddy diana. washing / detailing/ filling up oil in rickey ( my car ) , then chillin at the beach or at my parent's cold pool, then taking my gym hardcore workouts, zum-yog-sla. 3 classes meshed to one-ish word. then house meeting then going back to my parents casa and sleep and enjoy the festivities of the next day..... did i mention that i LOVE breakfast? starts the day right.